and i'm living like there's no tomorrow.

state of emotions is in a stable mood now. i've thought a few of the troubling issues, and have come to a conclusion for some of them. and i'm praying to gohonzon that they will work out, in the best way possible, without any party getting hurt.

i used to think that i'm not important to my friends, that my live or death would not matter at all. but, a friend showed me that i actually play a large role in their lives. when i'm emotional, they would get upset too. thank you friend, for opening up to me, for giving me the opportunity to learn from my mistakes. and i hope you benefit from the talks we had. i guess i've pretty much painted a very low role of myself in my friendships, hence the lack of confidence.

now that i'm not-so-emo, my friends are. i'm trying to think of ways to cheer them up, but nothing much seems to come to my mind. the only thing i cn do is offer my support(= so guys, gambette! dont give up pls!

one of my closer friend seems to be in a very emotional state these days. i'm sad cause i cant help to relieve him of his 'burdens'. i sincerely wish and pray things would be much much better for him, that he dont deserve all this shit that he's in. dear friend, pls pls dont ever give up. i might not be able to offer you much comfort, but just know that i'm really here for u, as a friend, as a listener, as someone for u to vent ur anger on... just go ahead. u have the privillege. =) the things you have given me. the support you have provided, i cant say how much i really appreciate them in words. right now, i just want you to be happier. to 'come' out from this cycle of unhappiness.