and i'm living like there's no tomorrow.

finished most of the work to be done for drug deve projec slides today at ziling house. her's neighbourhood pretty quiet, and her house has a very nice view of sentosa, mount faber and many other places. its nice and relaxing. i wish i had a view like that. but still, i love my current house and i'm nt planning to move away anytime in the near future.

i had the talk i wanted to with a friend this afternoon. as to whether it went well or how i wanted it to, i cant comment much. prolly cause it did not really result in what i thought would. yep, so i guess i'll just take things one at a time.

i've heard comments about being too overly sensitive and yes, i do acknowledge that fact. but, i still have something to say. would you rather have a sensitive carine or one who is very cold-blooded? i guess i should say a word of fairness for myself. the reason why i think that way was because i treasured the friendship, and so i treated every sentence, every word with respect. so when people thinks that they dont mean it that way and i misinterpret it, okie fine. so from the next time onwards, i shant take everyword into heart. so maybe its good i revert back to the old days where i dont give a damn of what's happening around me yeah. just me, myself and the world alone. you want that, and i'll give u that.

kim's been telling me that she has practically lost hope in friendships, after seeing the way how people treated her in aus, and going thru 'hell'. i dunno if i want to be like her. not bothering much about the stuff around me. not bothering to take the initiative to talk things out with people. somehow, i still feel a link, a bond with the people around me. there are many i treasure a lot. but who knows? maybe circumstance will change me..

its true its pointless to keep thinking about the same old issues that keep bothering me. but i cant help it. they'll just pop into my mind whenever i'm alone. i feel so helpless. i might as well just hide in my shell. sounds like a good idea. bury myself in the books. so i dont have the time to think about other issues...

its another emo entry ah..

note: thanks Dhiviya for your concern.