and i'm living like there's no tomorrow.

Human relationships are just so complex.

There were many times when I wondered, 'why did they chose to inform the other party instead of me?. Yet, its useless thinking of these stuff. Not only will my mood becomes affected by it, thinking about these will not improve the situation.

Thats why nowadays, i've decided to change my thinking. Rather than harping on who's more important, i might as well spend this energy on doing things which i like and enjoy. Take the class gathering as an example. Rather than thinking of why the classmates chose to feedback to Kelvin instead of me, I might as well ask myself this, "for whom is the class gathering for? for whom should i help out in the gathering? after asking myself that, i sat down and thought hard, over a period of a week. and i got my answer. i want to do this gathering, because i want to thank ms chan for all her efforts. i want to help in this gathering, because i am a part of mb0505, and not because of mb0505.

so there you see. a change in mindset. now, i feel much more carefree, because i am not burdened with the class. previously, i used to carry everything on my shoulders, worrying about small issues.. which is really a waste of time since they go unappreciated.

its just aint worth it.